The day... Mother's Day

I believe as women we are presented with obstacles to show us the strength we have. I believe that God puts us in those situations to influence other women. Throughout this journey I have connected with women I have never met, and formed bonds with women who have shown me love and support because they are going through the same thing or have been through it. I feel so blessed to not feel alone... So blessed to have women reach out and say they are experiencing the same feelings.

First of all happy Mother's Day to those of you reading this who are moms! You are so loved, and so blessed!

As I'm writing this, I have tears streaming down my face. This weekend has probably been one of the toughest since my surgery. It just all really starts hitting hard. So instead of sitting here and having a pity party I'm going to make it a blog in honor of moms who have adopted! I believe the definition of a mom is those who are selfless, loving, devoted to their family, glue that holds everyone together, and are simply amazing. I have never truly thought you have to physically have a baby to be a mom! Is it hard to know we can't experience that, yes it is, but it's because of all of you that children have a warm bed and food on the table! It's because of you that children get to feel how it is to be truly loved. I think so often we get caught up with the 9 months of being pregnant... The heart beat, the sonogram, the gender reveal and the baby showers. Yes, that is what we all get hung up on... But your the mom to your child forever!!!! How lucky you both are! I'm so thankful that God has chosen us to have open hearts to adoption, he chose us to save a child's life. Not because it's easy, but because he knew we could do it. My day will one day come but for now I want to say thank you to those of you who have reached out to me and told your story! Your truly amazing! 

The pain in my heart will never go away, but I know it will lessen. The baby showers will get easier, the pregnancy announcements will not bother me so much, and I will not cry everytime I'm around a pregnant woman. It's not because I'm not excited for you who are pregnant, honestly, I'm just jealous! Yes I'm jealous, but you know what, it's ok, I'm ok!

Whatever is bothering you, give it to God. Once it's given to him, he will guide you through it. It won't be fixed overnight but the peace it brings you makes it all ok. 

Happy Mother's Day to all of you!